It appears that we are whiny, whiny whiners. As I type this, I am pregnant. I am cautiously optimistic, however, since I have a friend who recently miscarried at two months and I am at 7 weeks. I am tired and nauseated unless my stomach is completely full. I bailed on traveling to Santa Barbara this evening to see Radiohead because I worried that I would feel too sick in the car and it is also supposed to be cold and rainy and I just don't think I can handle it all while fighting the nauseated feeling.
But I am very happy.
I have yet to see the doctor or do anything baby related, really. I have been thinking of furniture for when we have two kids in one bedroom and I feel as though I should really put some things in my first kid's baby book before the second kid is born. I would also like to decorate the house before the baby comes.
Friday, February 24, 2012
I went and had a blood test today. Testing FSH levels? I also picked up a kit for the husband so he can have his stuff evaluated. It is starting to feel as if everyone is pregnant except for me, but I know that others have had much more trouble getting pregnant than I could even begin to fathom. I think that it is hard for me because I am such a type A and I wanted my kids to be three years apart and here we are heading to four years or more and for some reason it makes me sad. I need to just let go and let things happen the way they are going to happen.
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Wow, that was a long break. On Sunday I will have a three-year-old. My doctor asked me the other day if it flew by and I had to honestly say, no. There are times when time flew, but I do feel as though I am living each moment and I feel time passing. When I look at baby pictures of my son, I can't believe that he was ever that baby and I try to recall how I was feeling and what my life was like then and it is hard to do. That's what I mean by saying that time has not flown by. I feel as though that was a whole other life ago, the baby years. We are now embarking, or trying to embark on a new voyage, that's what the doctor visit was about. We'll see how that goes.